Thanks.

Amarte así me trae muchos e interminables problemas; tantos que no sé cuánto más pueda resistir, cuánto más aguantará mi corazón que se hace añicos cada vez que tratan de derrumbar y hacer pedazos nuestros sueños...mis sueños. Eres todo lo que tengo y así este amor me traiga problemas con el mundo entero, jamás te dejaré, hice una promesa y siempre cumplo mis promesas: jamás dejaré de amarte. Encontré en tí todo lo que buscaba y mucho más; no sólo un refugio, un lugar donde esconderme para no pensar; sino que encontré a una persona que me cambió muchos puntos de vista sobre las cosas. Alguien que cambió mi rutina, alguien que cambió todo lo que conocía por algo mejor. Por un lugar en el que puedo vivir sin preocuparme por nada más que por tu bienestar. Sin tí yo me muero. Sigo en pie... pero como un zombie camino sin rumbo fijo, trato de simular que todo está bien, pero me es imposible. Sin tí mi vida no tiene colores, ni una sola tonalidad. Todo es tan oscuro que cualquiera preferiría morir antes que transitar tal vacío. Pero al estar tu mirada fija en mí, se congelan todos mis sentidos y nacen en mí sentimientos remotos; sentires que no sabía que existían, pensamientos, risas y latidos acelerados de mi corazón que con el oír de tu voz se encienden más y más; y sólo pueden ser acallados por un grito que contenga todos estos sentimientos.
Te amo más que a nada en este mundo. Tu nombre es la respuesta a todas mis preguntas. Todo me conduce a tí; y si no fuera de ese modo mis motivos de vivir simplemente no existirían. Jamás me dejes caer, porque yo jamás lo haré. Gracias por estar ahí con tu cálida sonrisa ♥ Es todo lo que necesito para que mi corazón de un vuelco de 180º. Te amo Bill Kaulitz.

Soulmates

What do you do if you find your soulmate, but it’s forbidden? For example... if it’s your twin brother! Or in my case, if it’s a girl... and of course, she doesnt like girls ! So, once you find your soulmate, but it doesnt loves you in that way, what is left to do? Because it cant be two soulmates for one person…or it can be? Maybe one could be your best friend, and the other….your true love. But, how will you know when it comes to you? And what if it never comes? 'Cause maybe you can find something easily… maybe you can find one of your soulmates easily, but the another one? Will you have to search for it, or will you have to wait ‘til it comes to you? Everything will be a coincidence, or it will be a consequence of a cause? Do we have to wait? Or do we have to look for what we really want?

And coming back to the case that your twin brother can be your soulmate... in that case, those boys/girls can have two soulmates too or what? ( Leaving behind the thing of the twincest, ‘cause it will not be reaveled as we live in this world where everything is done according to a plan, and where everything’s gonna be sad for somes...) so well, soulmates: do they really exist? Or are just a combination of all the people we know and we cant live without ? Will we all find our soulmate in this life or a 50% of people just goes through their lives being unhappy?

Just wanna know wich one of them is my real soulmate...or if i can have one at least.

Happyness

No one knows how I feel. How is it when you just can't see the charm in things anymore? When you just need someone to hold your hand and tell you he's there for you...'no matter what'.
I'm looking for something that maybe will never exist in my world: Happyness. It seems silly; every person sometime in its life has been happy, maybe a lot ARE happy right now. I don't know what else to do. I just need him. I just want him to know I exist! Or maybe the illusion is the only thing is left for someone like me. We will never find somehing if we don't try hard for it. But I need to know, what happens when you try harder and harder every fucking day, and NOTHING good happens? When everything you do is wrong... or maybe it's right for everybody, except for that someone you care to be right.
That's when you get frustrated. That is the word: Frustration. It's horrible & it has no look back. At least that you can find a person who makes you really happy. So happy that you can even forget about everything, that you can even do everything right, that all the bad things in the world seem good. You just don't really care, because you're happy & you don't matter about bad things. All your world seems like pink beautiful things.
I just wish maybe one day I can be happy. I don't ask for money, or anything. I'm just beggin' for some happyness, that obviously, your love can bring to me, BillKaulitz♥